I always feel a mixture of sadness and guilty relief the first day of school. So happy to get back into a routine and have some time to myself, but a little sad I don't see my little chickens all day long, and a little guilty for looking forward to some free-time.
And the first couple of days are always exhausting for everyone. My two older girls have been crying at night that they don't want to go to school because they don't get to see me for 6 hours, they don't know any one in their class, and it's too long of a day from home. I think after a full day, when they finally get to night-time, it just hits them full-force, and all of the emotions they keep inside just kind of tumble out.
It's hard to remember sometimes that things we take in a stride as adults are much harder for their little spirits to deal with; We've been having a lot of extended cuddling sessions at bed time.
Then bright and early the next day, after a good night sleep, anxieties are forgotten, and they are ready to head off again to see their friends and tackle the day. And then I am happy that they are okay to go, and that we are all ready to get back in the swing of things...